Dark & Empty

Genesis 1:2  Now the earth was without shape and empty, and darkness was over the surface of the watery deep, but the Spirit of God was moving over the surface of the water.

This earth (me) seems to be without shape and very empty at this time. Darkness covers the deep waters of my soul. But, I am confident that the Spirit of God is moving in my life even though circumstances appear contradictory.

How do I know that? I continue to cause pain for those I love.

I’m trying to learn to love as Jesus loved, but it eludes me.

Maybe I am becoming a threat to the kingdom of darkness. Maybe that is why I am experiencing these things. Otherwise, I would not be concerned about it one way or the other. But, such is not the case.

I am concerned. I hurt deeply when I seem to be the cause of someone’s pain. In those times I am ready (once again–as many times in the past) to throw in the towel. To call it quits. I think will never be an example of a good follower of the Lord. Therefore, I try to assume that I am becoming a threat to the devil’s domain. However, that helps not at all.

Despair.

What a dark enemy of the soul.